This year has been the hardest year of my life, but also the most beautiful. It’s part of a long goodbye, but it’s also a time to know my mom more deeply. I’ve grown closer to my family, closer to my friends, and closer to Jesus.
And I’ve had a year to be with my mom. To watch Gilmore Girls and So You Think You Can Dance with her. To look through old photo albums with her. To make her scones and pies and other tasty things. To sit with her, to talk with her, to laugh with her, to cry with her. And to tell her, over and over again, that I love her.
So today is a special day, even if it feels ordinary. It marks an epoch in my life, even as I know that this long goodbye isn’t over yet. But I won’t overthink it. Today I’ll just enjoy time with my mother, and tell her I love her again and again.